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January 17th, 2005

10:58 am Current Mood: content Current Music: Radiohead / / Lucky

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October 27th, 2004

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August 10th, 2004

03:56 pm - i'm due for a miracle Thursday is writing your life story!you're more concerned with the bigger issues of life rather than high school drama. this is all well and good, but don't get so caught up in your figurative language that it seems like you're speaking Nepalese. like that's a language. Which Band Is Writing Your Life's Story? brought to you by Quizilla LETS ALL MOVE TO CANANDA Current Mood: full

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June 2nd, 2004

04:47 pm - Radical Notions RADICAL NOTIONS......join... Current Music: Bullet N' Octane.....pirates

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May 10th, 2004

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April 22nd, 2004

09:53 pm - i wish i was a nobody

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February 17th, 2004

09:27 pm - Eff you see kay war had to run track in the pouring rain today. hmmmmmm......it was cool. cold but cool, or mabey you would count cool and cold as the same thing. o never mind this political video was made by a friend of a friend. a.k.a. a guy named Eugene you should check it out http://www4.ncsu.edu/~efeldma2/bushvideo.htm argh...women we suck! Current Mood: sleepy Current Music: coldplay...Moses

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February 8th, 2004

03:36 pm - i ain't no emo kid.........biatch! Taking Back Sunday! You really trust people, and they let you down sometimes, but you still really like people. You've got the emo thing pretty down, and you're kind of bitter, but you learn to move past that and remember the good stuff. What Band Are You Most Likely To Identify With brought to you by Quizilla spent the night at jackie''s house last night. i love that girl. i like the way that that crowd think too. about being straight edge and stuff. i was talking to rachel and she was telling me about how she doesn;t get people who are straight edge to make a fashion statement. how they say they've been clean for 1 week, when it's not really that they've been edge, but just havn't been exposed to any particular substance that will get them fuck'd up....... there was a show on friday and for the first time in a long time i wasn;t irratated by the fact that everyone was on something and i wasn't Current Mood: thoughtful Current Music: rage against the machine......Settle For Nothing

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February 4th, 2004

07:22 pm - friends matter What Thursday Song Are You? [Updated Images] brought to you by Quizilla "Marriage is a great thing. Hug and kiss your spouse everyday 'cause you never know. Friends matter." -Mr. Swenson hmm. people care. i like that feeling Current Mood: drained

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February 3rd, 2004

07:23 pm - "yeah, cool, check that out." ran 6 miles today blah dont you hate it when you have something to say but you hold you tongue, then whe n you finally have the courage or it seems like the right time to say it, you've completely forgotten what you were going to say? yeah, that's what i thought. probably not. i'm the mentally challenged bad speller. not you. blah i like to run with ewok because he keeps me strong. can't wait for track because it's actually going to give me seomthing to do after school apart from homework, which i have so much of tonight. blah have you seen that 'ANTI-DRUG' commercial on tv? its shows this girl standing on a wooden deck that over looks a lake, and she's just standing there, watching her friend struggling to swim in the water and it seems like she's drowing. then the girl on the deck just looks away. then the message is something like. "if you had a friend in trouble, would you help them" [pretty much saying if you had a friends with a drug/alcohol problem would you help them]. and it just got me thinking and confused and i dont know what to do because there's only so many people one can throw an attempt and helping in situations like this and actually have success over it. blah damn the aliens-head and their quest to destroy the after school like of all of her students......... blah Current Mood: blah

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December 30th, 2003

11:50 pm - new years resolutions 1. eat healthy 2. go to furthest extent to get good grades in school 3. be completely cool with the folks 4. start a real diary 5. get more sleep 6. take x-country/track more seriously 7. take long walks 8. keep in touch with old friends 9. spend more time with the family 10. be a better person i'd like to say this is the end of this particular livejournal but who knows Current Mood: peaceful

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December 29th, 2003

12:27 am - my salmon and cream cheese sandwhich today was like any other sunday: i chilled at home and did nothing. i cleaned my room. i cleaned out my closet. i got rid of so much shit and clothes. me and mum are going to buffalo exchange next week, cos she has a bunch of shit that she got rid of 2. lotsa cool retro stuff.......too bad none of it fits me :( spencer and brett came over around 6 and we chilled in my room for a while. then we left to go pick up rico and rachel [who me and spencer should hook up, but i dont think that would ever happen] anyways tonight was cool, we chilled. sometimes those sort of nights are better. we were invited to jimmy's bash but did;t go. mainly cos none of us were physically up for it, but we covered that up when we realised we didn;t have enough gas or money to get to crow canyon anywayz..... so we played pool, cards and watched finding nemo. it was a lot of fun. i got kidna tense though. rico got pissed over stupid stuff and thats when we called it a night. i got homme preety early tonight. i was proud of myself. it looks like i have some sorta plan for new year which makes me ahppy cos last year i didn;t have plans till the night before. and me erik and scott just got wated with rachel and that was it. looks like this year is gonna be a party. o yer and i watched my RAGE dvds and they fucking rock. LEGIT....!!!!!!!!!! o and yer. nick tping last night.....lol. i made brett drive past it tonight before he dropped me off and it looked to bad. haha. i thinks its cool that he did it though. i have a lot more respect for him now because i always thought he was too much of a pussy to ever do anything like that... Current Mood: chipper Current Music: bad religion.....american jesus

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December 27th, 2003

01:30 am - savor the pain all of the lights are out in my house everyone's asleep but me its dark and i can't see its silent then theres clumsyass me who falls down the stairs and wakes everyone up hmmm. my tummy hurts now. today i went to go see 'paycheck' with brett, rico and andrea. the movie was actually prettttty good. but afterwards we went back to andrea's and played cards like we usually do and rico was pissing me off so much that i ended up walking home. [its cool cos andrea lives 10 mins from me] the thing about the relationship that i have with rico, is that we're just like siblings. although we love each other, we're constantly squabling and winding each other up. we bitch at each other and make fun of each other even though deep down we have so much respect for each other. i like our friendship but today he just pissed me off so much that i ended up just going home. but it ended up being ok because chris lee called asking if i wanted to chill with him, evan and darren [who are all mighty cool people] so i chilled with them for......hmmmmmm........less than an hour doing what....hmmmmmm..........driving around.... yes, driving around. we dorve to andrea's, she wasn't there we went to chris k's but didn;t even stay. but just their company was awesome so it was a lot of fun i feel like my parents are constanly getting on my back for the stupidest most pathetic reasons. mabey its me, i dont know, i guess i dont care enough to think about it so now i've completely changed the rules of the house. i have told them that i shall have 'no time when i need to be home' because i was rather irratated by the fact that they wanted me home tonight by 11:30. they're still pissed at me and nick because we apparently embarrassed mum infront of all of her friends when we went to go see the fucking nutcracker. the thing that makes me and nick so different from the sons and daughters of mum's friends is that we truly do not give a toss. we've gotten so used to mum nagging us an dad yelling at us that we are no longer affraid to go against the will of out parents. we purely feed off their anger and frustration because it ammuses us. for the past 12 years they have been constanly complaing about the things we do and telling us to do this and that, and it is not until the last 3 years that we have actually started to stand up for ourselves. before, we would always keep our mouth shut...never complain or answer back. just get on with our lives even though we were being frustrated and tormented with the way we were leading it. our parents wanted us to be something we're not. surely they couldn't expect us to act upper-class in england when they sent us to the most dodgy school in the area...but they did. surely they couldn't expect us to be independent and mature when they would always shelter us from the world...but they did. so the last year we lived in england...we began to rebel. not by doing drugs or staying out all night. but just purely by speaking our minds and not being affraid of the consequences of our actions. its paid of now because our parents have a lot more respect for us now and realise that we can live in this big world because we wont let anyone hurt us or push us around. wow......so many memories of our early childhood. roah! like danesfield. our elementry school. man, is only i could go back there. i'd say a thing or 2 to all of my old teacher. complete and utter witchs they were. treated us like shit. arghfffmrgimbpeamvg...........i want to go on about that but it only gets me frustrated. i can;t believe that i let them push me aorund. get me into thinking that i was worthless. nrwrembwpebpwermbryepbm.....................i'd just love to speak my mind to them now and not feel ashamed or frightened of them. people like them live off fear, don't act affraid and they have nothing to thrive off. they're just insecure cowards. Current Mood: thirsty

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December 26th, 2003

04:23 pm - "there is some good in this world, mr. frodo, and it is worth fighting for" christmas day was lovely. no one woke up till about 12 and it was just a really pleasant chill day. we opened our gifts and i loved to watch my family light up as they opened their gifts. this is the first year where i totally just wanted to spend all my miney on the people in my life who are so important to me. mum and dad gave a new discman and some music and nick gave a rage dvd. woot woot. i'm so excited for the new year. this will be the first year i shall be setting resolutions for myself. and after that, i'll get a proper diary. mabey i shall just use livejournal for the communites that i'm in. i can't wait for the new year to come. it'll be so exciting. i gave me dad two towers dvd and a pink floyd dvd. we watched the 2 towers dvd last night. and its one of those which has all the extra bonus footage and secenes added to it. seriously, the more i watch those movies, the more i love them the more i appreciate them they have so much compassion and meaning to them that i dont think i even fully understood when i first saw them i was talking with dad about how they are sort of simialr to the star war movies but a lot better. he said that star wars was based on lotr and i kidna se his point. battle for middle earth...........battle for the galaxy good fight evil evil is taking over everyone unites to save middle earth/the galaxy. peter jackson is a genius. i want to see big fish...but i heard it was dissapointing that makes me sad Current Mood: cheerful

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December 24th, 2003

12:06 pm - its beginning to look a lot like xmas yesterday, i got my pictures back. i love them love them love them love them for once there is not one single bad one. they're all from the slaughterhouse and at stefs and school i shall cherish these pictures bcos they are beatiful and happy and perfect yesterday, i was going to chill with scott and brad but never got a call back from them. so brett picked me up, along with spencer and rico and i chilled with them all day. i think its cool because i'm starting to re-unite friendships with people who i was slowly slipping away from. its cool to meet new people, and chill with new friends, but there is definetely something special about having good times with old buddies. so the 4 of us went to carls junior to go get food. and then went back to bretts. we just chilled all day. played pool, went on trampoline, watched movies, exchanged gifts, talked....had fun. chill days like those are often the best. then alex came over and that just added to the fun cos shes such a lovely gal then it was over to rico's for dinner and to mine to play cards....after all....thats all my house is for. [kitchen table....best place to play cards!] then kt came over and we went to in'n'out then over to her house. got un-soberfied. went home...dada........ i only just remembered it xmas eve. how could i forget? i dont know....but i did. i love this time of year. this is the first time this month i've felt christmasy and i love it. now all we need is some snow and the scene is complete mum is making muld wine and i shall help her go make mince pies dad is up at blockbuster so our tradition of xmas eve will once again take place this year drink, eat and watch a xmas movie..... :) *big smile* HAPPY CHRISTMAS/HANUKKAH/KWANZA Current Mood: optimistic Current Music: frank sinatra....have yourself a merry little christmas

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December 15th, 2003

06:50 pm - please someone, teach me how to swim hello today was suprisingly good. i have to admit i was prepared for thw worse but i actually had a good day. [o yea......and it was a beautiful sunset and would have been a perfect night to go up mount diablo] started running today again after a nice 3 day break. its kinda too bad that me and rachel run different distances because i really enjoy her company when we run cos we have good talks and she seems like a very wise person. i was half tempted not to go running today but our english class is going to some jewish museum tomorrow so i won't get a chance to run. it'll be cool cos rat, kim, paul and lindsay will be there........should be a laugh. blah lets see, talked to a few people today about the whole situation about with andrea and was quite presently surprised to reseave any shit about it.....good times good times. i've had all these thoughts and questions running through my head recently [the last week]. the only thing about not being an american citizen which i really can't stand is the fact that i can't work. well, not legally anyways. and for some reason i've had the random need to go out and work. don't know why.........hmmmmmmmmmmm so last thursday, i was watching tv for once, and there was some documentary thing about the spice girls and it got me and nick feeling really homesick. and i know mum and dad are homesick too what with it being xmas and all. this is the time when we wold usually be with family and it sucks not to be. o well........can't win 'em all Current Mood: content

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December 7th, 2003

02:16 pm - winter in the willows i really dont spend enough time at home they all just made fun of me because i dont know where we keep the pots and pans. babysat last night. when one gets to the point where two 5 year olds can read better than them, that is a depressing situation. andrea is out on the trail right now selling misteltoe. should be with her but can't find a ride. she'll always be one of my best friends, but i'm definetely starting to notice the difference in age between us now. she's a year younger than me and i never really thought of it as an issue before. but the maturity level is starting to show through and i don't think we have as much fun hanging out anymore as we used to. i think we'll have a talk on the phone friendship for a while like we did last night. we talked for an hour which i think i enjoyed more than just hanging out. she's still in love with mac. which sux. because i've had feelings for him longer than i've known her. i dont want to piss her off though. she already pissed at natalie because she likes a guy that andrea used to like freaking months ago. i havn't writen about stupid childish bullshit on here for so long. and now i feel stupid and childish myself for writing it. o well, my journal. Current Mood: sleepy

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December 6th, 2003

03:54 pm - the slaughterhouse well this week has been good. friday was a nice pleasant day. kinda had a mini show during lunch with a couple of bands playing. adam's band and kyle scully's who coinsedently have the same drummer who is mighty wicked at drums. i never worked out why adam has always been so well-known. i found out why. his uncle is carlos santana! how cool is that? thats the same with chris. i couldn't believe his brother was erik from nerve agents until i saw him walking around the kitchen one day in his boxers and bath robe and couldn't believe my eyes. heh... so last night was da shizzle. we all went to some punk show and i have to say it was the best show i've been to since the summer. [apart from the 15 minute panik session at 12.30 where 5 of us thought we had been stranded in oakland][but lets put it down to experience] i thought it was cool because the people who ran the show seriously didn't give a shit if people were smoking, drinking, shooting up, etc. it was sick. reminded me of the shows in london.but i think this place was a bit more cleaner. haha. laura got completely wasted which was funny for about half an hour. i have to admit, even though i felt sorry for her, i c0uldn't stop laughing it was hilarious. she kept on passing out everywhere and yelling at random people and starting fights with all these chicks. definetely glad mike got it all on camera. have to get a copy of that. it was a great night and i know i've said that already but i really did have a great time. there were so many people. the venue was sick too. it had been set as a hanted house which had been used during halloween but i guess she just couln't be fucked to take all the decorations down. but it was pretty much in this garage/warehouse in oakland. it was the perfect sight. no near by houses. no cops. actually. there wasn;t even anyone else around apart form us. i dont know who played cos no one ever told me and i didn;t recognise any of the bands. plus the fact that i'm not really into the whole funk scene but i had 5bucks to spend so i was willing to go to it when i was offered the ride by chris. and i'm happy i went. the pit was crazy. but i guess thats what you'd expect from a punk show. it didn't matter at the time if we were all getting bruised and knock-down. the fact that we were having a laugh and having good times seemed to drown out the fact that we were all getting chucked around everywhere. have to admmit though. when i woke up this morning.....i did find it rather hard to get up with all the people there, and the mood, and the drugs and booze, the music,the atmosphere it just completely reminded me of old times. before all the new people started to chill w/ us. it was the original gang and it was a superb feeling for all of us. a lot happened last night but i think i prety much outlined it for myself to look back on. i cant forget last night anyways. it seemed so unreal. [when i told my mum i was going to some gutter punk show in oakland she didn;t believe me and just told me to be back by one. and seeing as i\m a 15 year old chick, i think that was pretty cool] next week subincision are playing at the grange. i'm so down. i was gonna go to not so silent nights but then i found out that tickets were 35bucks! can you believe it. 35 fuckin dollars. i expect i'll only have 10 for next weekend seeing as i think i'll be spending quite a bit this week on xmas presents. but yer. the show next week will rock. Current Mood: thirsty Current Music: louis armstrong.......winter wonderland

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03:53 pm - coinsedence? i think not........ California is where you should live. Unless of course you lied on the quiz which would be stupid. It's crowded as balls there but the weather is perfect, except for the occasional earth quake. What State Is Perfect For You? brought to you by Quizilla

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December 4th, 2003

03:52 pm - its funny cuz its true I can't spell why is YOUR livejournal annoying? brought to you by Quizilla i can't spell Current Mood: amused

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